The 3 Ps...

Recently read an article that struck a chord in my heart. Like the author, I too find that I suffer from these 3 temptations in ministry:

• Pride
• Perfectionism
• People-pleasing

As the author reflects, many people, including myself are often driven less by love and passion for the gospel, and more by the 3 things mentioned above. Some of the examples & comments the author makes are just oh-so-familiar to my own situation.

"I think that's a rather good Bible study! I wonder if they'll notice" (PRIDE).
---> Definitely have felt that temptation, in the context of preparing a sermon!

"I know my kids need my attention, but I'll just read over that article one more time" (PERFECTIONISM).
---> Probably the most common one I succumb to. In this case while I don't have kids, I sure fall in the same category of "over-doing" my assignments, sermons, Bible study preparations etc.

"I know people will disagree with me, but if I play down the differences, perhaps I'll keep their respect" (PEOPLE-PLEASING).
---> Oh how many times I've found myself unwilling to take a firm stand on some issue precisely because of that!

"Perhaps the 3 Ps are revealed in workaholism, subtle boasting or envy of more successful ministries."
---> Point 3 (envy of more successful ministries) have crossed my mind multiple times!

There's no quick cure to this, and like the author states, I'd probably be battling them until the end of my days. But I know that God has been addressing these issues over & over again during these past 2 years in my traineeship. In his wisdom, he has withheld opportunities for ministry & success in order that I may not feed my pride, but in despair, to cry out to him in helplessness. While the process can be painful, only God knows how deceitful my heart can be and the measures needed to crucify these inner desires. Praise God for his wisdom!

(Source Acknowledgement: "The temptations of the 3 Ps", The Briefing Issue #372, Sept 2009, Author: Jean Williams)